Sunday, August 24, 2008
went to study with garce and uly today:)
pretty productive overall.
during one of our little talks in between our intensive studying they mentioned i had really funny testimonials in my friendster account. they could even quote some! my goodness did i laugh my heart out. i couldnt even rmb reading such testimonials!
haha.
sOmE wErE wRitTeN lIkE tHaT
annd some were witten lyke that worx.
hahaha.
freaking hilarious.
we've all come a long way friends.
a superlong way.
i'm glad.
relieved.
and glad:)
yet sad that i've distanced from some of these friends who were really good and close friends of mind. wonder how you guys are doing.
yet glad too that i'm still pretty close to some other of these friends.
really heart warming:)
well, here's to FRIENDS:)
LOVE YOU GUYS! mUaCkX!!!
11:11 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
it's pretty unbelievable how foolish i feel.
been trying to think all of it through rationally.
organise my thoughts and emotions.
figure out what this really perculiar and never before felt feeling is really but i'm afraid.
i'm terrified.
fortified.
i'm a wimp who's afriad to face up to her own self.
this tomfoolery.
i'm gonna do my head sooner or later.
p.s. i'm betting my money on sooner.
11:06 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
just keep swimming
just keep swimming
10:55 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
i'm sorry.
please tell me what's wrong?
2:13 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008
i hate these bouts of inferiority haunting me every now and then.
i've struggled with loving myself for the longest time possible and based on recent observations, i seem to be losing this damned war.
why can't i see myself as the Lord my God sees me?
as precious, important, beautiful and with a great purpose?
i'm drifting.
into a deep dark ravine.
beyond the point of no return?
guess there's no such thing
but sometimes it feels like i've fallen so far it'll take a life time just to go back to ground zero.
i'm loosing my grip.
i feel myself slipping.
worst of all i feel powerless.
again, i feel myself on standing on the edge of the world on my tippy toes, wondering why i try so hard to keep my balance while i wait for the slightest breeze to give that last gentle shove.
bring me back?
you can try
but nothing in this world's ever guaranteed.
12:20 AM